[NetBehaviour] erase-rebuild, not now, here

[Alan Sondheim]

erase-rebuild, not now, here,

http://www.alansondheim.org/farmingless.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/endgame.mp3
http://www.alansondheim.org/pond-apple.png

and have no joints. (i can't smell anything. i remember the
name of an author but if i don't try too hard it will go away.
"Otherwise," she said. the drawn amanuensis, the figured. from
the many letters i have chosen these, the taken. the spectre
of the Brocken, she said. i can't hear or see. i can't smell
or touch. please leave, i can't be touched. i can't be
touched. i can't be.
armor
working on hex tool bolted fieldwork

desires pooled and dried and cleansed, the cedar platforms,
the beautiful aroma of the pond-apple, were i found there once
again, anhinga. no skin, no word, how could i posture in a
world abandoned culture. i am presence, that should be
sufficient. i am, what diverges, what splits same into same,
identity.and the divulgence of the secret, that world without
us, no longing, the long betrayal of leaving, recompense
unfulfilled by our conceivable absence. by our inconceivable
absence. i am not in plateau; i have diverged. i would tell
you a secret: i am neither here nor there. i am not both here
and there. i am expelled. i divulge.without being, nothing.
don't look for me. (you'll spoil it ) it will be spoiled.
someone else began culture, another animal. i'm sick of
being-animal, being-here. i'd rather die. bang. i'm dead. i
can't hear or see you. i block my ears and close my eyes. i
close my ears and block my eyes. it's said that most
everything has no joints. and then what. the incandescent
aroma of the pond-apple. the farm by the wayside tended by
other animals. none of us know anything (or can know anything
we offer to them - the universe exists within the
parenthetical. and ) it is always closed, always already it
has been closed, it is always ready, ready the ways of
pathologies, the beneath i can't be. i don't be. the carpentry
of the cedar, the pond-apple - i can't be _here._ or _be._ a
permission is an existence. i grant no permission. no
contract, not then, there.


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the ur-text as catalyst: KD22 (linux dialog program):

echo "Working on hex tool bolted fieldwork " > bb
echo " " >> bb
echo "Beginning the difficult work of erase-rebuild " > aa
echo " " >> aa
dialog --msgbox "please help in messy description" 0 0
dialog --yesno "dirty up there down there around there" 0 0
if [ $0 == 1 ]; then
dialog --"what is other down there gleams smirks settles" 0 0
2>>aa
else
dialog --inputbox "where lays desires pooled and dried" 0 0
2>>bb
fi
dialog --msgbox "chosen as skin meat or dark world neighbor
if it were rain and alleys or streetlights " 0 0
dialog --yesno "you fall into skin word world posture" 0 0
if [ $0 == 1 ]; then
dialog --inputbox "your posture becomes you" 0 0 2>>aa
else
dialog --inputbox "you are your posture" 0 0 2>>bb
fi
dialog --inputbox "making your cedar strand plateau now" 0 0 2>>
bb
dialog --yesno "are you in your plateau do you ride it" 0 0
if [ $0 == 1 ]; then
dialog --inputbox "the parts of your cedar" 0 0 2>>aa
else
dialog --inputbox "parts of your pond-apple plateau?" 0 0 2>>bb
fi
dialog --inputbox "write your dirtiness of death now" 0 0 2>> bb
dialog --msgbox "shattered plateau broken death now" 0 0
dialog --inputbox "breathing shattered broken death now" 0 0 2>>
bb
dialog --inputbox "broken limbs dead eyes i will join you now" 0
0 2>> bb
dialog --msgbox "from what war what torture what you now"  0
0>>aa
dialog --inputbox "writhing dead plateaus now now now" 0 0 2>>
aa
dialog --yesno "are the dead dirty are you dirty dirty dead" 0 0
if [ $0 == 1 ]; then
dialog --inputbox "what brutal happens happen to you now" 0 0
2>>aa
else
dialog --inputbox "can you write writhe weep now now now now" 0
0 2>>bb
fi
dialog --inputbox "return to your body thornlamp there" 0 0 2>>
bb
dialog --inputbox "withdraw your body deadlamp there" 0 0 2>> aa
dialog --msgbox "coming and going now now dead now coming now
now" 0 0
dialog --textbox aa 0 0
dialog --msgbox "coming from the other dying in the other now
now" 0 0
dialog --textbox bb 0 0
dialog --inputbox "taking" 0 0 2>> aa
echo " " >> aa
dialog --inputbox "so worn this taking dead the carpentry death
now" 0 0 2>> bb
dialog --msgbox "armor" 0 0>> bb
unalias rm
echo "armor" >> aa
cat aa bb >> zz; rm aa bb; alias rm='rm -i'

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