[NetBehaviour] Breaking New Ground
sondheim at panix.com
Fri Oct 4 06:37:08 CEST 2019
Breaking New Ground
emended text written around the time Foofwa, Azure, and I were
performing in the Involuntaries. applicable well to my current
all circumstances are extenuating.
"if you want to understand what they're about, perhaps these
works will open up the vast chasm of comprehension on the edge
of falling apart - I can't think of any better pieces in this
regard, and, for that matter, in the sheer beauty of fractured
works based on choreia, return, withdrawal from broken edges
(before one is cut) (before the sound loses its grasp) (before
one is cut out (of the world) (of your acquaintance) (your
grasp) (your body) (of your body my own)).
how does one write or circumscribe the body of movement within
horizons defined by mappings of hyperbolic geometry in the
circle? the edge isn't just asymptotic; from the outside, it's a
bad pill. what looks like chance is a battlefield; what looks
determined is incandescent birth.
"the battlefield is your last chance of being-alive, just as
your birth is your first-chance of dying."
there are so many things these movements and sounds are not:
listing narrows sublimity: just look, it's almost drained away.
think of dance as a draining, symptom as style,
medication-technique, how to get out of the hospital.
don't follow or recognize avatars, don't follow or recognize
symptoms. they start with dim memories of body, with landscapes
that accompany us, we're hounded.
we're hounded by death, but we're also hounded by disease,
troubles, fevers, forgetfulness, wrath, rage, ecstasy, visions,
poverty, money, obligations, lovers, ennui, hallucinations,
speed, crime, frustration, cataclysm, heat, cold, hunger,
thirst, nightmares, mutilations, panic, neuroses, economies of
attention, economies of the body, excretions, garbage, wounds,
scars, allergic reactions, insect bites, age, bad eyesight, bad
hearing, shudderings, shiverings, fear, belongings, jealousy,
loathing, disgust, addictions, genocides.
the playing-field of hounding, playing-field of the hounded. one
hounds, is hounded; the hounded hounds, hounding is hounded.
or like this: playing-field of haunting, of the haunted. one
haunts, is haunted; the haunted haunts, haunting is haunted.
"these texts, they are haunted."
if i write this sentence, thus; if i write this sentence beneath
or within the sign of fever, migraine, incipient diabetes,
tumors malign-benign. if i write this sentence beneath the
symbolic of medication, bandaging, radiation treatment,
dialysis. if i write this sentence gagged and splayed. if this
sentence is written without volition. if this sentence writes
if i write this sentence to control you, if i write this
sentence under your control. the order to work: persevere.
to persevere, endure, maenad-dance of self-devouring, maenad-
music of self-control. how can that be, except to ensure that
the beat is periodic, that repetition lunges.
the maenad feeds, hungers for repetition, desecrates it (the
repeat-ing). it's passed on so far down the line that gender-
sex and sex-gender change. they passed it down farther.
who were they? who's haunting us? why the fissures?
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