[NetBehaviour] And at Brunel -

Alan Sondheim sondheim at panix.com
Thu Oct 24 01:08:39 CEST 2019

And at Brunel -


Our last night in London, Brunel went really well!

Thanks to Johannes Birringer, for everything! We miss him
already. Breakfast with Marc Garrett beforehand. Soon we'll
hide out and never return from London and we'll sneak up on
Boris Johnson and say hello and scare him out of Brexit!

Ah in reality talked so much about failure, inadequacy, still
can't come to grips with this, then inadequate re: how all those
cartoon-like avatars take on, avail themselves of, the somatic.
There are gaps in my thinking. It's just poor thinking. Seduced
perhaps by the image, image manque, something like that.

Collapsed version below -

Some thoughts about work processes for the presentation I
generally don't around 'pieces' but create within modality of a
continuous production hence Internet Text's 25+ year run to
date. As I've described it, there are short-and long-wave
topics, recapitulations, indices, revisitations older material,
so forth. find I'm not 'progressing' as age no moments, in
others works, more or less naivete; thinking just continuous,
curls on itself. tend push things whatever limits can, place
stage edge spaces, spaces where begin break down. This gives me
opportunity simultaneously multiple worlds, some well-defined.
with other actors who inhabit temporary communities which
cooperation disintegration stresses that mirror every day life
numerous ways. venture well into territories untoward results,
'ugly' musics example, uncomfortable performance movement. All
this considers edgespaces annihilation, dead-zones, genocides,
limited resources, broken potential wells. underlies everything.
My always has, however, sense care, turning towards tending
stewardship, insofar bodies productions concerned if world
itself harbors moments kindness midst conflagrations. well,
revelation, desire, autopornographies, textualities pushed
beyond sensibility; these play against structures life-world
beyond. Again, inadequacy, failure, expression come play.
Whatever on, hope is ultimately safe; space allows performance,
expression, exploration, contemplation despair; one returns
from, words an moot space, however morose. Not only without
edgespace they also malleable, alterable their very fundamental
structure. There absolutes 'all way down,' least until
theoretical-almost mythical site planck constants, attributes
problematized. am told too negative, morose, demanding,
arrogant, argumentative, dominating, neurotic, depressed,
anxiety-ridden; probably all more; my self body continuously
under reconstruction / deconstruction, falling apart edges,
failing. fail what do; myself, others. think world's territory,
arena; we our own private hells, out art, thought emerges. A
difficulty clarity language much baggage new terminology
philosophical critical discourse. The tends write ride its
plateaus, close ranks, devolve operations seem totalizing
explain little outside universe But problem. thought, think,
embarrassingly complex absurdly simply concept perhaps something
else. When you're your limits, continue onward; soon you'll see
still safe, whole, wherever you might be. You've learned (and
from Clark Coolidge, conversation long time ago). Taking try
leave worse than it already is. Do better have, ruins behind.
Return possible ground, literal, physical, ground; remember
digital construct, addiction confluence protocols. Remember came
will enter death, malleability screen raster. critical, keep
somatic, flesh interiority, focus, even edges thought. real
that. Map limit can be approached, extent? grit dirt embraced,
momentarily cleansed. With eyes closed, _see_; visible supply
each other. same sense, senselessness, approach, unapproachable.
grit, flesh, dirt, biome, scar, history; ghost, disappearance,
memory others, you. Think rules transgressions, kind side, those
approaches go nowhere, apparent sadness real. through, release.
through createspace, network ruins. be, leaves destruction

There's (more of) course, can't, now (think of) them...

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