[NetBehaviour] No Hit with Grit

[Alan Sondheim]

(just want to add Ruth's image is beautiful! and hope to hear from many 
people here)

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No Hit with Grit

http://www.alansondheim.org/night.mp4
http://www.alansondheim.org/evening.jpg

I'm sick of this it's the same old thing over and over again. All
I'm doing is culling my internet text from all of my writings. To
produce a new text which is going to already be decayed and
obvious to anyone. It's has if I run out of anything to say. Says
if theory just gets lost in the grit of language that just
repeats itself over and over and over again. I just coughed. I'm
not sure what to do about this. It's not that I don't have any
new ideas. Sometimes I think if I look out the window I'll see
some children playing or maybe a family walking down the street
and I'll think to myself ha there's a story in that. And then
I'll think I'll write that story and it will be the greatest
story ever written. And then I go back I go back and I look at
the grit of my own work. I look at the disgusting pieces that
I've done that just seemed to suppurate (Super 8) and decay in
front of my eyes. I don't know what to do about this. My God I
can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. I can hardly stand
being out on the street now with covid-19. Yes I wear a mask. Yes
I wish I could disappear inside that mask. I don't know what to
do about this. So I just continue making the grit is if I'm
making new discoveries all the time. Sometimes I think there's
something in my work called the archaeology of the text. In other
words you would look at this you would look at my text and you
would think this is mining like coal mining this is mining deep
and other things are emerging from beneath the surface. But I'm
giving too much credit to myself as a writer and I'm giving too
much credit to you as a reader. For who would want to spend the
time and energy going over what looks like nonsense from above.
That looks like nonsense whether it is or isn't. It certainly
isn't philosophy or theory in any real sense of the word. I don't
know where to go with this except to leave you with the stuff
below and hope that it will be some kind of senseless code that
disguises its own meaning of death and even brilliance.

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Clearly I've lost the direction of this