[NetBehaviour] medical, vector

[Edward Picot]

Alan,

I absolutely lived every moment of this. I was just thinking 'Every 
single traffic light is against them' when you said it out loud - and 
then Azure shot the last one before the freeway, turning from amber to 
red as you reached it, which seemed really dangerous and reckless but 
also like some kind of symbolic victory over the system. At first I 
couldn't work out if you were on your way to the hospital or going home 
afterwards, but your remark that this could be the start of a 
cross-country trip had such a note of wishful thinking that I realized 
you must be on your way. With that in mind the satnav instructions 
started to sound more and more ominous, and when they announced that you 
were arriving at your destination, and as you drove into the car park 
you confessed that you were starting to get nervous, the tension was 
palpable. After watching the video I found myself having to read Philip 
Larkin's poem The Hospital: 'O world, /Your loves, your chances, are 
beyond the stretch /Of any hand from here!' That terrible sense that the 
hospital/medical world, the world of illness and mortality and fate, is 
the underlying reality we spend our lives trying to ignore, and that 
'normal' life is just a dream. Very appropriate to the Covid crisis.

Edward

On 23/07/2020 01:38, Alan Sondheim wrote:
>
>
> medical, vector
>
> on the way to the lab for a series of medical tests
>
> http://www.alansondheim.org/medical.jpg
> https://youtu.be/UrcsXQKHiOk  VIDEO
>
> went to sleep around 3, up @ 7 to get there early.
> about a 12 minute drive.
> Azure drives, Dr. said I'm not to drive for 6 mo.
> we'll see.
> a kind of dawn breaking, then some other stuff
> rain when we came out, umbrellas.
> reading an old book, Sal Restivo, The social relations
> of Physics, Mysticism, and Mathematics.
> lots of David Bohm. Reidel, 1983. I was too nervous to
> read in the hallway. 3 separated chairs in the hallway,
> 3 in the office. everything makes me nervous. medical
> makes me nervous but don't think for a moment avoiding
> tests. that's all we have, tests.
> the camera does poorly in poor light. once out of the
> garage, everything adjusts properly. sound is 5.1.
> lost in car noise, 2013 Honda Fit. huddled inside now.
> again. no cloud formations are alike. my dreams aren't
> good. it's worse when i remember them. what's about
> this, it's normal. it's normal one way or another.
> take a bus. walk. get a ride. drive. keep on going
> across America. Keep crossing America, America!
> Keep on going, America!
>
>
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