[NetBehaviour] The Eternal Exercise And A Comment

Annie Abrahams bram.org at gmail.com
Wed May 5 23:21:54 CEST 2021

May  l ask Alan
What was the reason for starting to produce work at a daily rate?


Le mer. 5 mai 2021 à 22:23, Alan Sondheim <sondheim at panix.com> a écrit :

> The Eternal Exercise And A Comment
> http://www.alansondheim.org/gonedays.jpg
> What am I hearing it might be God
> fearing the stallion is rearing
> the forest is dead where am I
> going the sky's blowing red the
> people are ready the horses are
> fed where have I been in this town
> of grey sin in this town where the
> weather's unpinned where the
> horses are in where the stallion
> is ready where the horses are
> rearing and the forest is dead.
> Sometimes there's chasm a sight of
> a plasm where's the flesh isn't
> messed and the samples go lie and
> this sky is darkling and the
> plasm's a storm that always means
> harm and the cyto is psycho and
> the horses are no go and the
> horses are carrying bodies in
> babies up to the sky up into the
> sky. What am I seeing it might be
> gone fleeing the stallion is
> winning the forest is gone where
> am I going the wind is no more the
> people steady to go down to the
> Weir. Where is the Weir where the
> canal was flying into the sky with
> the horses and chasm where is this
> site have the people who light
> down by the forest for the trees
> are all burning and the horses are
> churning in this dream by the
> river in the river by brook in the
> fountain in in the sea in the sea
> in the ocean in the lake of the
> ocean in the lake of the ocean
> where the horses lies sleeping and
> people are weeping at parties in
> babies are up in the sky and
> falling and sweeping the seeds of
> the rye and the wheat that
> surrounds us and the lost people
> hound us where the horses are
> tossed and nothing is left but a
> weir way down there where the
> people in steeples steeples learn
> how to fear when they go down in
> the forest and the ocean is messed
> and the horses are blessed hands
> up in the sky the lake of the
> ocean is a sound of the cry from
> the horses and bodies and babies
> who fly.
> I've been thinking more and more about this process of creating
> daily new work; I've been doing this for 27 years now in a row.
> It's been a scaffolding but it's also been a source of anxiety
> since it's difficult to come up with something new on a daily
> basis; for all I know I may be repeating myself incessantly. The
> result, combined with covid, is an out of control anxiety. Part
> of this is a fundamental lack of community here in Providence,
> which has been going on for almost eight years; part of it is a
> real lack of funding, which in my (equal lack of a) profession
> results in an inability to carry out the work I want to; as you
> know - I was adding this all up today - for the first time, I
> have no real adequate still or video camera for production, and
> no chance of getting these (I've always worked otherwise, with
> good equipment, since 1969 or so) - so there's no VR or AR work
> coming from my end, no potential collaborations at this point.
> The last actual grant I had was something like fifteen years ago
> which gave us tools to work in West Virginia at the Virtual
> Environment Lab. Since then, there's been no funding, which sends
> me constantly back to things like linux, work with acoustic
> instruments, text manipulation programs and the like. (Medicines
> cost for example.) If anyone has any ideas at this point, please
> let me know; I'm certainly not going to be getting any other
> grants or faculty positions or stipends etc. I'm constantly
> trying, even now, to get a book out, based on my production and
> theory-work (such as it is), but I think I carry the stink of
> failure around with me that undermines everything. At least we
> owe no one any money, and I keep going at this absurd and
> somewhat baleful task of continuous production.
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