[NetBehaviour] Covid with eyes closed typed

[Alan Sondheim]

Covid with eyes closed typed

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Working through the irregularities of covid which affects
language and transmissios and ow typing with eyes closed, what
will be the resulting configurations, will the words come out as
dictated or something else, I dpepend on my language skills for
all my work, even the music, the videos, the theoretical
impulses which gude me. Now I notice my hands and fingers are
becoming numb, are you still with me, does the "granularity of
existence" (a phrase I came up with WHILE typing this at full
speed) hae any breating on my ability to community, which may be
fading as the day is long? That's a question I cannot answer; as
I type, my wrists and fingers are increasiglyfeeling numb,
becoming cnumbing, and I'm not sure what the tracking problem is
here; there's nov isual feedback at all. When I start to stutter
it takes all my energy to get thgough that period to be able to
continuew= to wrie anything. Too many to's and I don't know if
the apostrophe is write=====right for that occasion I find
myself makings ubtle corrections which may or may not be
relevant, that is to say, trying to make this as coherent as if
I were seeing and sighting and siting what I'm doing, It's
difficult issues. Now I will conintue with my eyes open but
without making any corrections; that will be for part two.

This is part two which I am writing but without making any
corrections as I said but now I receive feedback from eyes that
guide me somewhat from the errors I was making above, as if
there's a split socnconscious. It is a split cosncios at work
here. We are about to have breakfast, the numbness in my figers
is increasng , I'm tyring to ohold on to a kind of thinking, the
air coditioner just went on, I owrry O'm fading agan and won't
be able toc continue at h least thhis stream of consciousness.
I'll end now with a sense of despairin at the resulg which I can
see is already riddled with catastrophic thinking in the sense
of not being able to form ro or rather to be able to unform
which is different an d unraveling which isn't desired,. This is
row wr o worse than I thought it would be, hoping now tht tha
the carlirty clarity will return, I'd better stop before I give
up entirely -


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Disclaimer, that we have known so many people who have died or
been deeply incapacitated by covid; it's now has if the effects
and violence of the plague have been sutured over. My symptoms
were severe but short-lived and current medication transforms
conditions into events. In the meantime, the conditions change
one way or another "as the day is long" but this too shall pass
soon, hopefully.

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