[NetBehaviour] the healing of esoteric scratch erhu

[Alan Sondheim]

the healing of esoteric scratch erhu

https://youtu.be/LkjifBgRr0w video

eyes open
as of this night, azure sleeping, i awake i MUST play
quietly, the _scratch_ of the slow bow, bridge mute with folded
tissue, not an issue, this darkened, the slightest deviation
creates too much volume, this is tiptoe erhu to be sure, sound
sour sound of a worm for a robin, the sound of my breathing
sometimes difficult, i look - the very idea of a cure
problematic for what are the boundaries of the returning gray
sky, so this is the whispered calmness, the bow moved ever so
slowly across our my dull consciousness the waves, murmurs,
_music_ at the prior birth of language, of the language of Taut,
that \edge / after

eyes closed
that \edge / prior as of last night / i wish i hd something to
report, a night (better to report) of horros, unable to
function, to wake, to sleep, to do anything, neural debris
admixed with body plumbintg, things going wrong, things
stalling, lost in a sea of pain, . wish i had better to report.
if this is not long covid, what is, and what i read poiints to a
certain trial of everything and too many pathways and confused
information and often information generated by the suffers
themselves, i almost wrote patients, but caretaking seems
somewhat a troublesome thing other than lying around oh i did
that last night w/ the full horror of wakefulness going nowhere,
couldn't function, was gone before it came, hammers and anvils!
hammers and anvials! * in a momoent will try something on the
erhu to accompany this, haven't played it in a year or so,well
not that i can remember and i remember only the not-i and
(trrans)substantiation of the immicable.


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