[NetBehaviour] threnody

[Alan Sondheim]

threnody

https://youtu.be/1bhV9S8ysuI video

i wake wake in the middle of the night
i think is this the last night will this be the last night plus
one  ,, will this be no further
as nothing is further, there is no reach, no reach left, nor
right, no highway
along the reach, the breach of body and mind
everything left behind, tomorrow i will not see

know i am not a jew i am not a god i have left these
in the wake in the funeral of nothing, funeral of
'annihilation: to the limit' an early work in a world
full of bones and more to come

perhaps i will not last the year or month or decade, perhaps the
hour is lost

o love, o love, after i am gone, the year, the month, day, hour,
what will you see, 'what will you see'

now i read in ten years time and i think, i will not,
i will not, be there

and the smallest thing will escape

and hymn to god my god in my sicknesse

the paper curled, burnt, the ash insolvent, emptied of all
language
raise nothing, lower the ground
lower the ground farther

the farther father in me and without me is gone to ash in a
small somewhere stone
i have been and will not return to

there is no such time, nor trance, nor dance

there is no unto, there has never been unto

o world o lost in mime
my time lost in world

as i veer towards absence
and abjure

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